'I'd never been so dead before. It took days just to remake my bones, my organs and skin. When I was conscious again, the first thing that I did was look through my little diamond windows. The black hole had fallen behind, and I was free. I was watching the ship. I did watch you. Honestly, I hoped all of you would survive. Why wouldn't I want the best for you? All those thousands of good friends, and of course I was thrilled when you changed your course just enough .... For days and days, I watched you fighting ... a gray ball getting smaller and duller ... slower than me by a long way and with a rather different trajectory ... and then I couldn't see you anymore, except inside my head ....'